No one is courageous enough these days

It's not easy when you thought you can even try to let someone be part of your life, only to find out that he/she can't even take the step to go forward.

I respect the reasons behind all these, as I am also in the same process of making myself fully available to anyone who may offer their sincerest self, love and companionship.

However, at this juncture, I again begin to question the sincerity of anyone who would claim they are looking for something serious and meaningful in the aspect of the elusive romantic relationship. So, why on Earth do we still end up indirectly hurting each other in this selection process? So, why on Earth do we not seem to take the time to really be worth the while of anyone's life?!? Think! Don't just read. Think!!?

Call me ideal! But I guess my point is, if we all say we want something with someone in the long run, don't we owe it to ourselves to give it a chance. And what is this blah blah blah about not being able to get in a relationship because  blah blah blah..!? How lame or stupid can anyone get if he/she believes otherwise on something he/she thought she wants in his/her life!?

I guess, the reason why most people nowadays end up not being with someone is because we all thought we like to be in the company of someone for a serious romantic relationship. But in the end, we do not even have the greatest courage to step forward and see if that someone is worthy of our own space and time.

There are many things on this world which I can't fully explain. But this doesn't mean, we need to stop... Call me ideal! Maybe I am. And maybe I am a fool as well... thinking I could ever let myself love again but perhaps not really.. not this time.. not anytime! :(

On that note, do I want to go back to the old ways of hooking up, playing around and nothing more?! Maybe not...I'm tired of that cycle as well. I should just go to the convent and be priest!

Just now......sad now. :(

This shall pass. I know.

Happy birthday kambal!

Sarap ng quick round of beers with the kambal. Salamat sa patikim sa birthday niyo today! Later ang big gala dinner!

Beastly

Kagabi ay nanuod ako ng pelikulang “Beastly” kasama ang ilang kaibigan sa Eastwood. Masasabi kong maganda ang pelikula. Sa totoo lang hinde ko alam na may ganong palabas pala.


Ang pelikulang “Beastly” para sa kaalaman ng ilan ay hango sa isang nobela na isinulat ni Alex Flinn. Ito ay isang makabagong pagkwekwento ng paborito nating klasikong istorya ang “Beauty and the Beast”.

Para bigyan ko ng kaunting pagbubuod ang nagbabasa nito, ito ang isang bahagi ng nakuha kong synopsis mula sa Internet:

“Beastly is a 2011 romantic fantasy film based on Alex Flinn's 2007 novel of the same name.[4] It is a retelling of the fairytale Beauty and the Beast set in modern-day New York City. The film is written and directed by Daniel Barnz[5] and stars Vanessa Hudgens and Alex Pettyfer.
The plot focuses on Kyle Kingson, a wealthy and arrogant high school student. During an environmental event, he disrespects a classmate, who is secretly a witch in disguise. The witch then casts a spell on Kyle to disfigure his body and face, giving him a year to find love or be left with his monstrous appearance forever.”
Source: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Beastly_(film)


Sa aking pagsasaisip

Isang punto ng pelikula na nakapagbigay sa akin ng matinding paksa ay kung paano ang isang tao ay nagiging totoo sa kanyang sarili at sa taong nakapaligid sa kanya. Ang pelikula ay isang love story sa kabuuan.
Para sa akin na patuloy pa din na humahanap ng kasagutan kung kailan, paano, kung saan at sino ang magiging kaibigan at ka-partner ko sa buhay. Hinde ko maiwasan isipin na sa lahat ng nagdaan kong relasyon lalo na ng huling 2 taon, medyo hinde ko pa masabing nagkaroon ako ng matinding pakiramdam para maging totoo sa taong nagustuhan ko.


Hinto muna
Ay hinde pala, may isa palang tao na naging totoo ako pero gaya ng ilang mabubuting bagay hinde pa din ito nagtagal. Isang bagay na marahil ay dala ko pa sa puso't isip ko at di pa talaga lubusang nabubura ang ukit sa isip.


Balik sa paksa

Gaya ng bidang lalake sa pelikula, dahil sa may itinatago siyang pakiramdam sa bidang babae hinde nya agad natagpuan ang sagot sa tanong kung kaya ba siyang magustuhan at mahalin ng huli sa kabila ng kapintasan at pagkukulang niyang pisikal.

Ang kagandahan ng isang tao ay hinde lamang sa pisikal na aspeto pero sa kung anong nasa puso nito at anong kahulagan (worth) ang alay nya sa taong gusto nya. Ito ay isa sa mga aral na nakuha ko sa pelikula.
Sa puntong ito, naisip ko kung anuman pagkukulang ko na hinde ko pa kayang ihayag o ibahagi dahil sa takot, dapat ko na siguro simulan na makita kung paano ang magiging pagtanggap ng ilan. Ang lakas ng loob ang isang bagay na dapat kong matutunan at sa pamamagitan nito ay maipakita kong handa ako at seryoso. Na gaya ng marami, ay handa akong ibahagi ang aking sarili ng higit lamang sa isang pagkatataon o pagniniig ng sari-sarili.

Ang pelikulang “Beastly” ay isang kwentong walang hangganan ang dulot na aral sa lahat ng naghahanap ng kasagutan sa aspeto ng kanilang buhay pag-ibig.

Kung iisipin ay perpekto ang paksa nito at hatid na turo para sa akin lalo pa’t may ilang tao din akong nakilala lately na sa tingin ko ay “worthy of me”. Ang tanong ko ngayon, sa tingin kaya nila ay “I’m worth their while.”

Throwing my white rose to whoever thinks I'm worth their while against all odds.

Sometimes I am thinking if I should just find a friend whom I could have some benefits with then ka-boom, we're in love!

This 2011 movie - Friends With Benefits is probably a must see movie.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4YPeQ4qtbNM&feature=player_embedded

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Summer is hot and so is my love search (once again)

Last night was spent over a celebratory dinner with two close friends. We were later joined by an old friend. The topic was love and so the mood was lovely.

I thought for a while whether I am again on the road to lovedom! Maybe I am, come to think of it. However, I must say that I am probably not taken seriously lately when I contemplate on having a relationship. I may had been out of the love conjunction after being crashed and beaten down.

It is so hard to wire down my fences. Each time I know someone , a potential that is, I had found myself increasingly raising my bar to judge if he's worth my while. True enough, I look for the next one who can show me that he's gonna be there for me. True enough, I look for the one who can say he can love me and someone who can show me what the meaning is.

At my end, I need to master myself to be strong and to be me. I have been meeting up to give myself a chance to see who's out there. True enough I could see that there are potentials. But then again, I don't seem to feel the same amount of affection or truthfulness from anyone for that matter. I am tired just going around in circle. If there's one true love or the right one as they say, I need that person to kick me on my butt and tell me, "Here I am, you bitch! What took you so long to find me! I love you anyways!"

I write again...

Sa tinagal-tagal ko ng sumusulat, ngayon lang ulit dito. Sa ilang blog sa blogger account ko ngayon lang. I've come to learn that I don't have to write everything..

I just thought ... why not write again (here)..

Let me kick off something for old time's sake....