Life is still good

Five years ago, you and I met. It was an unexpected encounter. Up until now I still wonder what could have been my life if I've not experience you coming into my life.

Your arrival warranted me to appreciate life better. You thought me how to love myself , smile and still be appreciative of the things that this unfair world can give.

It wasn't an ending for me but a new chapter at that point when you came. Though for a moment then, I was afraid and I asked if I can really live with you or it could have been better to live without you.

Up until now I never spoke about you to anybody or to anyone, not even to my kindred. It was my choice and a choice that I do hope you won't feel bad about. There are things that may just be left unspoken and let time move forward.

It's been a rollercoaster ride for you and I. But amidst all those things, I've learned that I can no longer change what you've done for me and how you really changed the course of my life ahead. Now, after all
these times, I seat here where I am writing this and I look back to that day I came to know you. It was never the same anymore. I would say though, that a lot more good things came in since you and I met.

I never stopped looking back because it helps me keep my ground. For what it's worth, life is still good.

Defy some demons

I defy gravity. I go against the tides. Some people are not bred to withstand any thing that comes along their way, especially if it's a big hurdle.

I say this because as  person I know there could be certain personalities that each of us will meet in our lives. Take for instance anyone who is close and dear to your heart. That person may agree or disagree with the things that you want them to do and in the long run hurt you more than you hurt them. It is quite lonely to think that there could be things that you need to just let go and not talk about. And maybe sometimes it's best not to discuss those stuffs to avoid further stresses in your situation.

I process a lot and I analyze so deeply anything that goes and comes my way. It is not an easy process for me to do this but it is certainly a learning curve that I will deal with. It's simply because I thrive to live and tend to say to myself , just do what you think is rightful in your heart and believe that the other person will just take care of the situation to your liking. 

It's love. It's hate. It's nothing when you don't feel anything and you don't care. It will be death when that comes.