I WRITE AGAIN: Out of the blue expression: 25 years and 10 days later...

I WRITE AGAIN: Out of the blue expression: 25 years and 10 days later...

My fingers led me to look back some nine years ago, how I looked or regarded my 25th birthday when it dawned and sprawled. They usually say that being in mid-twenties is like a quarter-life crisis for many of us. I think that it was true for me then.

Now, it's just good to look back after all those years and know that in all those ups and downs of my life I stay on course. I am much stronger and happy to look at the brighter side of things in life.

Life isn't perfect but it's always something to be happy about I must say!

Nine years ago, there was my younger self who tried to immortalized my being in the twenty-something and beyond. Now, I am on the road to being a classic. Reading that old blog article of mine once again is such a good reflection of the beautiful parts and the not so beautiful back then. Such experiences that I tried to reflect on back then led me to wade ahead my life.

To insert some lines from that old blog:
"A good friend of mine once said to me that she admires my maturity and deep thinking ability. It is such an inspiring thing to hear. Knowing that I am still a lad who must learn, achieve and succeed in all the aspects of life itself, this I believe is in preparation of my eternity."

Becoming

 

Semi-classical facets of me

They say that you cannot equate your success with your age. True. I think, success is inevitable to some who may already have achieved a lot in their younger years as much as throughout the rest of their lives. While for some, success doesn't fill in until later in life.

Life as we know it, does not give us all the opportunity that we so desire no matter how hard we try. Life is unfair as we always say. True.

Experience is the best teacher. True. In any experience, if you're intelligent enough and sensitive to the core, you will have some worthwhile realizations that you can bring forward towards the end of your life.

Growing up is not easy as much as growing old each year. True. I remember my dad who is now in his sunset years. Most often, I don't seem to understand why he would feel insecure and cautious wading through the remainder of his life. I tend to think and agree at this point that ageing and growing older isn't a fun part of existence. You will grow old, get tired, get sick, be left out and be alone to a point that no one will ever wonder if you're really okay.

Classic. What is being classic? Can I consider myself classic at this point in my life? They say classic is canonised by the adoration and colored by once own perpetual style. True, maybe. So I think I am semi-classical at this point in my life. My years had gone by and each year I look back at all the moments I spent with people, friends, love ones and family. The experiences and the success that came with my classical existence is all a picture of the ultimate classical being that I may become. The accolades and the recognition that will come by will soon become a satisfying reason to the classical existence that is me.

To say that being classic is being old and being left out may be a good way to look or define the word itself as well. If so, then maybe I am on the road to being a "classic" being.

Tomorrow, I will turn a year older and I will still celebrate and become proud of my successes, experiences (good and bad), the years of growing and the upcoming years of being older. It will all be my fuel to embrace a life that will come to pass, maybe tomorrow or maybe years from now, I don't know that for sure. The classical me, may become inevitable but I so look forward to become one in the coming years.

I am thankful to the things that were given to me. I am proud with all the achievements and the colorful hues of what life injected in my veins. I am reflective and almost teary-eyed to look at the window in where I am writing this short essat, just because I know that when I take my last stand somehow I will be remembered and be canonised as a classic. Potentially, in my epitaph I will be canonised as, "It is he, who never failed to laugh when things aren't so bright. It is he, who inspired people around him to achieve and become better. It is he, who loved to the most of his core even when he comes as if overwhelming and overshadowing. It is he, the classic being that is Jon."

Life is still good

Five years ago, you and I met. It was an unexpected encounter. Up until now I still wonder what could have been my life if I've not experience you coming into my life.

Your arrival warranted me to appreciate life better. You thought me how to love myself , smile and still be appreciative of the things that this unfair world can give.

It wasn't an ending for me but a new chapter at that point when you came. Though for a moment then, I was afraid and I asked if I can really live with you or it could have been better to live without you.

Up until now I never spoke about you to anybody or to anyone, not even to my kindred. It was my choice and a choice that I do hope you won't feel bad about. There are things that may just be left unspoken and let time move forward.

It's been a rollercoaster ride for you and I. But amidst all those things, I've learned that I can no longer change what you've done for me and how you really changed the course of my life ahead. Now, after all
these times, I seat here where I am writing this and I look back to that day I came to know you. It was never the same anymore. I would say though, that a lot more good things came in since you and I met.

I never stopped looking back because it helps me keep my ground. For what it's worth, life is still good.

WHO, WHAT, WHERE, WHEN, and HOW I LOVE - an anniversary special

WHO I love was the guy I met when I was 22. He was intelligent, sexy and full of ambition in life. He inspired me to become better.

WHAT I love was the guy I met when I was 24. We met through common friends. He was someone I found to be a perfect strike of balance at that point in time! He was fun to be with, stable and sensible who inspired me that life's a colorful journey.

WHERE I love is someone I met from the most unexpected channel that is, via online! Who
said that finding someone for a serious romantic relationship isn't possible from the online channel?! He taught me how to become more independent and his commitment to me though short-lived experience, gave me a wonderful perspective on what I want later in my life ahead -- work, family & personal aspects.

WHEN I love is someone I felt I didn't need to love as a partner just because my other priorities in life such as my career was more important to me at that point in time. The relationship I had with him didn't endure the distance, the differences in our outlook, the almost seemingly immature nature of the connection we had. And it made perfect sense somehow because, even when I love at that moment I knew I won't be 100% giving it my all. However, I know I cared a lot about him.

HOW I love was someone I met when I was in the US. He is years older than me. I got so enamored by his perfect sensibility in life. He got me inspired by the situation that he and I shared deeply at that point.  We fell in love at the imperfections and humanity. HOW I love is someone I know I won't forget because he showed me how I can love and how worthy I am to be loved. And that I shouldn't let anybody define me not even someone I love. I am myself. I am me.

WHO, WHAT, WHERE, WHEN & HOW is someone  I am  loving,  enjoying the company, partnership and friendship. He is  someone who I have the up and down moments, and someone I've committed to be in a relationship. I know in my heart that if who i love, what i love, where i love, when i love and how i love is someone who ends up being part of my life on this Earth, I know I already won almost half the battle in this crazy little arena of love & partnership.

For I know he will be my last and I won't ask much because WHO you love is who you are, WHAT you love is the reality that being in a relationship is a mixture of good and bad moments, WHERE you love is where your counterpoints doesn't matter because love is universal, WHEN you love it's not time bound, it's endless, and HOW you love  is not a question of "how" but rather a statement of your ability to love to the fullest no matter what, without much qualms or conditions as much as possible.

To YOU my 4Ws and 1H, HAPPY ANNIVERSARY. It's a wonderful milestone that I will always remember and I won't stop for as long as you and I know it's a journey worth a thousand years! I thank you for your inspiration, patience and understanding. Ours is not a typical relationship where boy meets girl, or girl meets boy. Ours is the unusual sweet connection and even though some may not fully understand the reality of it, in the end I know that our LOVE will conquer them all and we will live to inspire those who has forgotten that LOVE is UNIVERSAL and ETERNALLY POWERFUL.

I LOVE YOU GA.

I'm rather hopeful and I choose to be upbeat than otherwise

There are confusions and questions and constant battle inside my head these days that I want to dislodge and eradicate.

That for a moment I say that I will be okay and my partner will be happy. It will be a good ending for us. An expectation I draw in my mind and throw out now into the Universe to accept and spread throughout.

And that he and I will be made stronger by this current crossroad which is optimistically promising if we only know how to face the music and win the challenge.

I will only look forward and give myself the chance to see the best of things in the coming months. From that I do hope that my partner will also exercise the loyalty, wit and intelligence to stay true to our course and be courageous when things are not going well.

But know and realize now, that even though you may become sad or alone , I am on the far end of the world where I will send my love, my spirit and joy to inflict love and sincerity to the devotion and partnership that I've committed unto you.

I view this cloud as rather hopeful and filled with good promise from the two hearts whose sincere and loving spirits are powerful enough to make the relationship endure.

I may look at the dark, rough patches as points of uncertainties but I must say that I do know that you and I are bred to become better and stronger. For we are wild, brusque and strong just to be shattered into pieces that easily.

My heart goes to the loving promise, the alignment of hearts and commitment of two bright minds during this time where the unthinkable were made whole and running, while  the peculiar aspects had become the simple norm of times.

In the end, I am rather hopeful and I see that the promises made can be executed entirely for the benefit of two beings who had been enveloped in rough start but had been made pliant by the complexities that were laid before their eyes!

I want the strong current to sweep me away sometimes

You! Yes, you, Mr. Going Against the Current! This one's for you! :)

For a while already I know I admire you. It's rather inefficient of me to express this now as I was reading your latest blog. I think our minds could intertwine and have a blissful intercourse together.

Such a strong physicality, intellectual prowess and mindful spirituality, things that I see in you. Yes, in you! Very cool, so sexy.

I like you. It's not what I know about you personally. It's my little known facts about you that makes me want more and more, to see you write and express and to interact with you personally that's rather more appealing as I see it. It could make perfect sense.

I don't see you that often & I only get to hear some latest news or happenings about you from your kindred. But it's all served more like an appetizing dish that I want to try and try over again.

Your written expressions in your channel is such an outlet that fills my craving and  I see you more and understand you more. I like you for that. The more I read more from your site , the more I could say you & I share a common ground and similarity of thoughts whether muddled or puddled, still its humanely sexy to admit we can cringe and/or pout  sometimes. It's our God-given right to do so.

Yes, you! I think you're CURRENTS are strong that I want to be swept away by you! I hope you delight me with your appeal and see it to be inspiring.  Cheers!

NUVALI, NUVALI BUT YOU!

Some 5 years ago I started a project,  a personal project of mine to build a house that I could be proud of as part of my long standing journey in life to succeed, to dream and inspire.  

It's not a very easy journey to say the least. I had to endure some daily grind, personal setbacks and multitude of hurdles. Amidst all that, I know I'm not suppose to stop as I know this house, this wonderful dream will share more happy memories and fun, sweet and warm times to my family & friends and love ones!

2013, with some grace of God and His divine blessing, is the year of our grand move!  

To God be the honor of having and achieving this wonderful Nuvali home of mine!  

Come, join me and share with me this milestone!

House warming gifts and well wishes are welcome! :-)

Hospital arrest!!!

Getting sick and to be hospitalized is something that I don't really wish to happen to me.

But there comes a time when things don't go our way, we succumb to stress, contract unwanted elements and eventually be run down!

I am writing this on the bed of my hospital room, spending my time here, recovering. I was sick On & Off for few days before I decided to submit myself to hospital care! I did not want to because I am thinking of so many responsibilities but I realize my health is very important.

This is the first time that I was hospitalized . Aside from thinking about what I am missing at work, there were lots of thoughts inside me that I am thinking about while in hospital confinement; like what will happen to me, who will take care of me, who will cover for me at work, what about my pending house move etcetera!!! In all these, I told myself to just let go for now and things will fall into their proper places. Add to that, I am blessed that my partner was helpful in my time of need and emergency. Some family members rushed to the hospital immediately upon notification while some friends came as well and some sent their get well messages (some were non reactive even when notified, oh well).

On the side:

One funny but I felt offensive tone/remark that I got was a question from an old friend who asked ,"Baka HIV yan?" I knew it was a joke so I amusingly said to him, "Baka nga, at kung totoo lagot ka at nagdilang anghel ka!"

However, I also felt that it's not funny to be joked around with why I'm in the hospital. I told him that I do not like the connotation just because I'm gay I am easily attributed to HIV. I am not specifically the victim of such connotation but all gay people so this led me to give a short but biting lecture of what HIV is and who it can affect (it's not just for gay people my friend)!

My point is, no one should even try to think and say a person may have HIV by virtue of his/her sexual preference. i think, it's plain ignorance for anyone to think that way.


Secondly, hypothetically if I am afflicted with the virus, I don't think it should be a barometer of my ability and personality. That remark may have come as a joke but it's already a pre-judgement that I don't deserve at all. I am not that type of person who discrimates based on character, preference or attitude! So I expect better from anyone who knows me personally or otherwise.

Thirdly, I felt that what if I do have HIV do you shy away from me? I do know that not everyone has the intelligence to know what being gay is about, what HIV is, what being a real friend is, so at least I would expect respect and cordiality!

At this juncture, as I invibe recovery from my illness I do hope with my little opinion it reaches far and beyond to everyone who may read it - to just provide context on friendship, the ability to support any one in need, the modesty to be more careful about what they say or utter to anyone , the ability to respect and not easily think bad of others regardless of their lifestyle or preference!

World peace!

Friends through thick or thin?

Sometimes I can't help but question the friendships that I've made in my life, whether those are deep meaning or otherwise.

I guess it's normal to have those moments when we question the sincerity, the loyalty and the alliance because just like being in a relationship , friendship requires constant assurances on both sides to know and help us understand that we are not just friends when things are good or okay but also when things gets tough.

Even simple gestures that requires significant adjustment by one end to another is a big deal to me. Especially if I am the one requesting or inviting at least I would expect if you really know me you know that if I say I want this or that, and its not a matter that affects the surrounding significantly but more on the subtle side where you can adjust if you want to because I ask you to, you ought to consider that - as a friend to me!

Big milestones in life, just like in anyone's own area, are really requiring support not only from family, loved ones but also good friends. What kind of support? Well, at bare minimum I guess the security of knowing that as a friend , just like what the song said, "you just call out my name, and you know whereever I am, I'll come running.."

Exciting ride of life

It is never late to see that life is good, fun and filled with exciting colors of adventures!

This photo is taken during our Zipline ride adventure in Lake Sebu, South Cotabato in Mindanao, Philippines.

It's never too late to see good places and celebrate the opportunity with people that matters to us. In this exciting ride, my partner & I enjoyed the quick seconds of that recent funventure! If you think about it, the risk, the thrill of doing thiS zipline is not something to be taken lightly. Why? Because any wrong turn could mean disaster! But sometimes, such opportunity with someone may forever be cherished as well for it will strengthen your bond and togetherness!

In the end of it all, we could say that we managed to enjoy life and never let it control our lives by being so entwined with pressures or worry that we might slip! In life, you either stop and never achieve greater heights just because you became afraid to do it. However, I should say to you that you may also choose to lIve life & love it as well as celebrate it. You may do that with or without the luxury of having someone ride it with you.

What is most important at this is that you did it, i.e. enjoyed and had fun in the thrilling and colorful journey of your life!

Have a good one!

CHEERFUL PASSAGE TO A NEW YEAR!!!

It's going to be New Year in a few hours from now. Just like the towering Mt. Matutum standing tall and proud in the fertile, progressive land of South Cotabato, I am inspired to see how we are given a vast opportunity to do good and become better each time.



Mt. Matutum in Dole Pineapple Plantation, Polomolok, South Cotabato



I stand here in this vast field of Dole pineapple plantation & I can't help but reflect how blessed I am to stand and witness a wonderful creation by the Power that that put me here in this world.

 

I am thankful to the year that will pass by. Surely, it was not a perfect ride because there were times I doubted and almost felt discontented with how things are going. But I persevered and continued to have an optimistic attitude that served well for me in the long run.

 

In the upcoming year, I am just prayful and I am hopeful that I will continue to be blessed with strength and power beyond measure! I will be showered with more wit and smart strategies to win any obstacles that I may come across with. I will be bestowed the love, the good health and the wealth that I hope to have and more to receive.



I wish the world a Happy New Year ahead, that is filled with peace, love and healing of land and body!

 

I send CHEERS to all, so it is double, triple CHEERS I openly want to receive!!!

 

Just like the tall and massive active mountain of Matutum volcano in front of me while writing this small year greeter, I say, "THANK YOU and GOD BLESS US ALL IN THE YEAR 2013!"

Cross-mixed thoughts on a low key Sunday afternoon

Each day I wake up, I see myself reminded of things to be thankful for and what not.  Looking at the my window pane, overlooking the cityscape I feel the high and the fear of life. I guess it's a point of reflection that's why I see myself writing this short note now.

I think that, each day we continue to do the same things and excite ourselves with different aspects to make the journey of our lives even more colorful. I am not the average citizen wanting the simple things in life. At least I am a high dreamer with extra jolt of power to attain and facilitate my wants, that's one thing I know I am. With each inspiration that I get from friends, people, love ones and family, I try to achieve my dreams, and with every ounce of challenge I thrive to gain new power and absolute reality.

I don't know what this day has in store for me. Sometimes, Sunday is such a lazy and reflective day. It's a rest day but today I feel a bit restless wanting to see some greens or colorful hues of life, just to observe and be inspired, to attain extra bullet for my plans. But as I look at my four walls and four corners, I want to make the journey come together and feed me with new heights and new thoughts to serve my purpose. The sound of the train passing by, the dark gray and blue mixed of clouds, and the cry of the leading lady in the Tagalized If Only movie, all of those makes a simple hues of my Sunday aspects making me want more, making me feel that life is simple but it's also a complicated journey that someone has to develop a positive attitude in order to become whole and almost perfect to step out and feel extra hype.

In order for me to do this, I want to make sure I am able to plan out at least the bare minimum process of my project plan and eventually serve as an inspiration to the people close to my heart and vice versa.

May each day be a joy to bring me to the fullest of my potentials and more...

Image credit:
http://sacred-circle-mandalas.blogspot.com/2008_08_01_archive.html

Of government service and its continuous improvement

In the days when anyone who is applying for a new job, going abroad, applying permits or simply just applying for official identification, one can simply feel the nitty-gritty aspect of going to the government offices - local city hall institutions and all just to get that piece of paper evidence that you are cleared of any derogatory record.

I came with my partner today to see how much or what has change in terms of applying for NBI clearance, POLICE clearance & Barangay clearance, respectively. His purpose for getting these clearances are for local employment.

Sad to say, it's still the same long process as I see it. I take for example the NBI process. While NBI has made efforts of automating the application, that is not 100% automated because some of the people who cannot go online will still need to go through long lines, lots of additional payments (i.e you are ordered to buy Cedula at the city hall before you can pay the NBI and start application, or simply you are given a brown envelope for PHP 5.00 for the sake of having a placeholder for your little piece of paper-- all those I call as "money making machines" where one cannot really be certain where the proceeds go. I could only infer that those could be potential graft and corruption schemes if not something that aids in that century-long cancer of red tape and shit hole).

I think the Philippines is still at the edge of ancient practice and the system is not gonna change anytime soon. I just hope all the fees that any Juan Dela Cruz paid for while
Applying for NBI, Police or Brangay clearances will be used for the betterment of Filipino lives on a daily basis. Sad to say, that is not something we all could categorically say a reality.

Even the rich Filipinos would just opt to pay and contribute to the potential graft and corruption underlying those simple services offered in government institution just to make their individual purposes meet and closed.

There are other concerns as well on whether the records that NBI, Police or Barangay institution keep are accurate. I just can't help but wonder how they deter if one has a criminal offense record or not? Or was it all just really a piece of paper?!

If there's one thing I would commend in this last beat I had today, I can say that in the process of long lines and nitty-gritty, there are helpful Filipino government employee who would openly assist and provide instructions to easily make the process quicker in any way possible.

Seating pretty

Seating still, prettily and patiently on this rather good but gloomy afternoon is not a bad idea.

They said in order to take you out of your routine and daily grind, you also need to shake things up a bit.

Here I am, after an early day of bank errands, now lounging myself to a well deserve buco juice coupled with my lonely french toast indulgence at a nearby coffee shop.

It's rather nice experience listening to the soothing music and relaxing beat.. A few more hours and I will be submerge in my reality and grinding the timeworks to another page of life.

To say the least, take time to seat, enjoy and rather choose to become optimistic even if some plans may not unfold, even if some gestures expected are not met and even if some conjunctions are way beyond your control.

Have a seating pretty day y'all!!!

Sweet nothings made special altogether

"Love mo talaga aq. puro ka surprises," ang sabi mo sa akin kanina. Sa isip ko, aba duda ka pa ba? HAHAHA

Sabi nila, sa isang pagsasama mas may higit na expressive, may mas higit na mapagbigay, may mas maalalahanin at mas matapang, mas masungit at kung anu-ano pa "mas".

Juicy & tender expressions.

Bakit kailangan may higit na "mas" sa isa't-isa? Pede namang sabihing magkaiba nga lang talaga sila at dahil doon ay nagko-complement sila at nagiging isang diwa at katawan.Sa ganang akin, ikaw at ako ay parang dalawang uri ng halaman tubig pero sabay na nabubuhay sa tubig at nagsasama sa karanasang hatid ng tubig na ating ginagalawan.

It touched me while tinkering downstair when I chanced upon your Starbucks notebook and saw some of the pieces of expressions I've written for you.  To saw those pieces bookmarked inside the pages of your notepad is heartwarming. Some sweet thoughts, messages and reminders are priceless. Now, are you sweeter than I could ever imagine?! Patunayan!!! lol

Seeing and knowing that you appreciate such small write ups that was coupled with the actual sweet gestures you've experienced...it makes my mind lit up with glee knowing you would treasure my sweet and lovin' blah blah blahs!

I must say, "You're worth it!"

Why "The Healing" healed the movie going public's crave for a nice suspense thriller drama?

Plot
The movie starts when Seth (Vilma Santos) went to a famous faith healer hoping that her father, Odong (Robert Arevalo) be healed from paralysis due to stroke. Manang Elsa (Daria Ramirez), the faith healer gave Seth herbals for Odong to take before sleeping at night. The next day, the neighborhood and Seth were all shocked seeing Odong healthy and able to walk again. Eventually, Seth's sick friends asked her to bring them to this faith healer hoping they would be healed like Odong too. Seth's son, Jed (Martin del Rosario) heard of this faith healer that made his grandfather healthy again and seeing the condition of his half-sister Cookie (Kim Chiu), they both asked Seth to bring them to the faith healer. At first, Seth didn't agree but later on was moved by Cookie's plead. When they went to Manang Elsa, her brother (Joel Torre) asked them to leave but the people, including Seth and her friends, was begging for Manang Elsa's healing. Due to noise and disturbance they've caused, Manang Elsa finally allowed them inside and started her healing ritual.


Why "The Healing" healed the movie going public's crave for a nice suspense thriller drama?


The cinematic illusion of the movie at the opening credit was almost an intertwine of interest and imagination. To my liking, I found that to be interesting for the opening credit to ignite in me a sense of interest. To be honest, I was meaning to watch a CINEMALAYA entry last July 27 evening in Trinoma but ended up watching this movie with my partner. Overall, it did not disappoint my craving for a good Filipino movie.


The overall plot was a 100% reflection of the typical Filipino culture that believes in faith healing, driven by poverty, by belief that there's a powerful Source that could heal you from your affliction without the aid of modern medicine. 


What made this movie more interesting is the series of twist and suspenseful turns that occurred. This made the audience really shout, shriek and clamp up to the edge of their seats consistently. I've observed that the public was very receptive with the storyline and their interest was really engrossed with the scenes. I share the same thoughts with the rest of the theater going public as I watch without batting an eyelash, thinking  "What's gonna happen next? Who's gonna die? Who's making this all eerie happenings?" 


The edits are superb. The graphic manifestation of the effects are excellent. I loved it because the producer, the director, the technical crew was never hesitant to show the effects that really made the audience go wild while watching the horror take turns!


The acting of the characters are all within the bounds and each have delivered based on their role. The main character, Vilma Santos, is and has always been consistent with her acting. Of course, it is refreshing to see her in this type of movie apart from her normal dramatic movies.  The supporting casts are all good. 


It is also nice to take note of the different shift of color themes in each time one of the character dies. From white to color pink, it's a nice sequencing and you could tell that the storyboard was well thought off. 


So why did "The Healing" healed the box office? It's very simple, it's a good story. PERIOD!!! It was made with a powerhouse cast which interested the audience to see it. The movie was unique and  I really think that from the days of the movie, "Feng Shui", this new Star Cinema movie is perhaps one of the most beautiful, well-crafted suspense thriller movie. I actually think that this is even better that those earlier horror-suspense movie made by Star Cinema.


It's a must watch movie, not because it's a Vilma movie. It's a must watch film not because of it's commercial tone but because it's a well thought off story. It was made even better with good effects, good acting. Lastly, it never made the audience felt that it's watching a "poochoo-poochoo" Filipino movie.  


At the end of this movie, you would hear the audience clapping their hands as a sign of satisfaction with this film!


KUDOS to "The Healing"!

SOME DAY

A day in Boracay Island

There are times I want to rule the world
There are times I want to play the hard game
To all the the daily grinds of my life
I just feel it's all a matter of attitude to live it

Some days are fun
Some days are warm
There are days that I feel cold and stressed out
There are days that I feel hot and ready to strike any who oppose

In all the days of my life, I pray for only one thing
That SOME DAY I will be a transcended spirit
With overflowing muse and appetite for life to share
That SOME DAY I will be remembered because I touched lives

Credits to Jon Tierra
IT Guy. Writer on the side. Dreamer on the outside.

On giving your love a second chance?

EARLIER AT WORK.....one of my office gal pal asked, will I give someone who I hold dear a second chanceif I learned something not so good that could strike out the relationship?

I answered her, "Oo. Kasi gusto ko eh. Siguro sa part ko, I'd like to develop a better understanding of me and my love one's individuality, para malaman ko kung bakit nga ba dapat ko siya bigyan ng second chance. 

'Di ko alam, maybe it's LOVE... & so I'd like to think that new chances may be made special because of that LOVE. Of course, HE should be sincere to earn it that back again and I need to start trusting again, it will be bliss to let that happen --- that is TO let myself trust the one I care about once again."


 HAHAHA

#HeartFeltLaughterAfter

Mornings of love

Many times in my past I have always dreamt of spending a different kind of routine apart from my usual stuffs. Special moments of waking up , looking at my window and thinking what the new day may have in store for me. To experience it knowing someone is with me to take a peek on what the new day seems to promise for us.

Today, among the many days and mornings that I've experienced in my life, I've come to share this beautiful Saturday morning with  someone I hold close dear to my heart. An awesome and real happy times that I cannot just let go just like that.

I never want this moment to end. I want each morning, each day to be a well-spent time. Be it on this current location where I stay or in the future home that I want to build and develop or to the new apartment I may be renting someday. Each new day knowing you are loved and inspired makes your life more meaningful amidst the stresses that you might encounter later in the day.

Mornings of love. Moments of love. In all the coming days of my life, I claim it to be.  Whether it  will be sunny, rainy or snowy, I hold true to my dream come true...with someone like you!

Defy some demons

I defy gravity. I go against the tides. Some people are not bred to withstand any thing that comes along their way, especially if it's a big hurdle.

I say this because as  person I know there could be certain personalities that each of us will meet in our lives. Take for instance anyone who is close and dear to your heart. That person may agree or disagree with the things that you want them to do and in the long run hurt you more than you hurt them. It is quite lonely to think that there could be things that you need to just let go and not talk about. And maybe sometimes it's best not to discuss those stuffs to avoid further stresses in your situation.

I process a lot and I analyze so deeply anything that goes and comes my way. It is not an easy process for me to do this but it is certainly a learning curve that I will deal with. It's simply because I thrive to live and tend to say to myself , just do what you think is rightful in your heart and believe that the other person will just take care of the situation to your liking. 

It's love. It's hate. It's nothing when you don't feel anything and you don't care. It will be death when that comes.