* This blog article was written last Thursday.
Over Mc Donald's Cheeseburger meal I found myself writing.
Fear not the unknown as most quotes would say!!! Fear is only a pigment of what is yet to transpire. From an optimistic point of view, it's rather a good reminder that we are not in control.
This morning I was awakened by a call from my father who again experienced difficulty in breathing and chest pains. Talking about rush and emergency eh! It was Several weeks ago since he first complained about his chest. And it led us to conduct a series of emergency check ups just to make sure we're dealing with it properly if we could.
For somebody who is on his sunset years, it's probably expected he will have complains like that.
As this is biting on us, I can't help but think of fear. I guess, as part of my human nature , I can't be secluded from feeling this way. After all, There are things at stake. Over the last couple of years, I had enjoyed and been very thankful on the good things that came my way. To think that something untoward may happen is really disturbing. How do I kill that insecurity? Well, to tell you honestly I don't know how. But I am delighted to say to you that I get by and Perhaps by reminding myself that I am stronger than I thought I am, then I am able to win over the pessimistic viewpoint that I aM experiencing.
It's rather difficult to feel bad but I think a real good attitude would serve better for me.
My father is no longer young and the sooner I accept that maybe soon he may say goodbye (for time being) just like that, it would seem fit for me so that moving on or adjustments may not really be that hard. No one's ready in this type of concern but my awareness may be my best armor for this.
Behind all the curtains and colorful hues of life that my dad and I experienced, I'd like to believe that who ever controls the light on the stage will bode for us a real and good happy ending. After all, I think we both deserve that.
