Calming

In this hour, I call upon the light to calm my senses. I ask the Highest power to bring me some direction of senseful track.

It will be days ago, when I learn to love life better. It was days ago when I feared the most. The greatest fear and the greatest lost any one can probably experience and try to overcome. Somebody told me to be strong, with this someone I felt some sense of direction. I was right to spill somehow a bit of my self right now. Just at least to unload some burden I have to endure probably until the end.

I call upon the Migthiest to give me more power, to be stronger, to be more calm facing the storm. I ask for healing, I call upon the Universe to conspire and make full sense of my evolution.

I won't know how many days ahead I'll be facing. What I know now, I am trying to be calm, learning to chew this hard rock, and trying to find the best possible solution I can get.

It's gonna be tough ride. Like more than any wild ride in the world can ever level to this. Nonetheless, as I probably have told once in my previous entries, I will live to see the day to seize and hopefully make a difference in making some reality give a good bite!

Credits: Thanks to photoblog.com for the photo. Thanks to you (you know who you are).

CDSTTW

What worst can happen now!? Right now when am feeling down, sorry and about to cry. I wish I can tell you how I feel and you can comfort along the way.

There's no amount of love right now can fill my drought and my battered spirit. I can only be stronger now and try to live each day happy, and free spirited.

So many things are flashing back to me like a rewind and yet I am still here, just me, on this seat, in front of my computer, staring at the screen, blank, just typing the words that means a lot. So much hidden feelings of surprise, shock and thoughts of fear and worries lingering.

I just want to go to the top of the mountain, shout, cry, embrace the land for which I will return in time. I just want to make myself go around, busy, and busy to the point I can forget about the things that just came around.

No amount of ice cream, cakes, good food can fill the void now. I need to find my compass and find my way right.

Confuse. Disoriented. Sad. Thinking. Thinking deeply. What ever happen to me?!

I didn't know the feeling until now. !#!$!%!!$$%!@#$!~~#$!#!#$%&&*(%%^&*$

Sailing On

Like a comet that passes by each time in the sky, I came to know how much life can surprise any one. It’s always a refreshing thought to think about how dynamic life can be and how robust destiny can be inevitable.

At some point in everyone’s life, we could say that none of us did plan perfectly well for things to happen. I remember some good friends of mine that had some life changing situations in the past. Some got married, some went abroad for better careers, some stayed on to manage their own business, some continued to live, some continued to aspire. Most of us did start to aspire and become somebody. Most of us did look at the future with a goal. Many of us did some deep thinking and analysis to see where we can go as we age and learn with wisdom.

I write again, just trying to reflect these changes. And while also looking at the best changes I’ve come to witness in my life I want to think of the good things and how it can inspire me to do better in spite of some recent concerns I have.

In the coming weeks, I’ll probably look and ask myself, “How are you doing?” There has been a significant concern on my part that’s bugging me. I am not ready to talk more about it but I am quite concern on the end part f this probably life changing event. In the next few months, I can speak more freely about this but for now I just like to reflect on what destiny is trying to tell me. What is the reason? What do I need to do? All these “WHAT” questions in my mind right now. Indeed, life can be surprising I tell you.

I am delighted as I sail that some friends are also sailing on to a new chapter. It’s really funny to remember how once we dream and told ourselves that we will stick together if all of our plans don’t fit the direction that we want. But now, it seems that each of us going to be explorer BIG TIME! This is quite refreshing to note. One thing is sure though, we continue to stick together and update each other. Life can be surprising indeed.

My life, my family’s life, my brother’s and sister’s life are all integrated in one common inspiration of success and achievement. This fueled us all to think further with our lives. We may have stumbled once or twice or even more than that but we sailed on. Some of us sailed away farther and while others keep their dock offshore and find their change in there.

I will be changing soon. In fact, I think I’ve changed a bit now. Just looking at some things differently now. Maybe after this confirmation, I will transcend higher. I’ve come full circle with my self and realized a lot of things. As I drive each day, I find myself asking, thinking, analyzing how can I make my change something more meaningful. I feel stressed about this and certainly leading me to just stare in blank. I just want to know what more can I do and hopefully once confirming what I am now comprise then I can sail on steadily once more. We can’t always have a rocky sailing experience, it’s not good. It’s better to just sail on steadily and experience minor wave fronts along the way.

To Him, hear my heart’s desire!

Sweet goodbye for now

Saying goodbye is never an easy thing. I think this statement is true at some point. But my "goodbye for now" was made even warmer and sweeter by good friends Credits to Enzo for the ULTRA RED photo frame.

And then Mopey & Broody's goodbye is even fun and cute in their own way. Broody's "paawa" face and Mopey's wash away style!

Live or Die - excerpts from my time

In this crazy world

Live or die

In this cruel life

Live or die

I came to know

That life is not easy

Live or die

I came to see

That my life is short

Live or die

Live or die

I told myself

Life is short

But I choose to live

I will

Time will come

My spirit shall pass

To all my love

I shall perish with one last laugh

Until that time comes

I choose to live

With all my self

With my life intact

I shall live

My Heart Will Go On

So Rudy Fernandez passed away last June 7. Thanks to my office friend Inzo who like me is a Pepster! He learned about it in PEP - Philippine Entertainment Portal.

I just browsed through Youtube and chose Yuna Ito's version of My Heart Will Go On to bring an Asian twist, perhaps a much personal touch or tribute to Daboy! Let's face it, I am a fan!