This is my version of the song, "How did you know". I entitled it, "I did not know".
I did not really know that I could feel this way again. That is, to like someone and each day care to a higher degree of caring and thinking. Nonetheless, it is such a lovely feeling. I share this to you and soon I hope we can sing it together. :-)
- Jonathan
I did not know
INTRO
I remember so well
The day that you came into my life
You gave me your name
I gave you mine and made you smile
My life started to change
I'd wake up each day feeling alright
With you right on my mind
Made me feel life will work out just fine
CHORUS
I did not know
I needed someone like you in my life
And fill the empty space in my heart
We met at the right time in my life
I'll never forget
When you brought the stars to light up my life
And took all the woes and fears that I had
I guess what I'm really trying to say
It's not everyday that someone like you cross my way
No words can say how much I care for you
(Repeat Chorus)
Monday, October 25, 2004
Thursday, October 21, 2004
"Say You Love Me"
"I was looking into the mp3 of my officemate and had the chance to listen to this beautiful Patti Austin original song, "SAY YOU LOVE ME".
It was quite a hit to me. It is so cool to the ear and somehow I was able to relate to the message of the song. Hmmm....it's not really a big deal for me...or at least I don't want to think of that as a big deal. I don't want to assume any possibility 'cause I have always been blinded and had easily fallen in love in the pasts.
Listening to this song, reminded me of the importance of how good it is to feel inspired. Basically, it is the essence. Now, even if I am still not sure if the other party feels the same way as I feel, I could straightly say that it's worth experiencing to feel good for someone.
Now in my busy work day, I was able to deviate and send this one to all who may likewise feel te way that I feel. "-JT
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It was quite a hit to me. It is so cool to the ear and somehow I was able to relate to the message of the song. Hmmm....it's not really a big deal for me...or at least I don't want to think of that as a big deal. I don't want to assume any possibility 'cause I have always been blinded and had easily fallen in love in the pasts.
Listening to this song, reminded me of the importance of how good it is to feel inspired. Basically, it is the essence. Now, even if I am still not sure if the other party feels the same way as I feel, I could straightly say that it's worth experiencing to feel good for someone.
Now in my busy work day, I was able to deviate and send this one to all who may likewise feel te way that I feel. "-JT
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Don't you know that I want to be more than just your friend?
Holdin' hands is fine, but I've got better things on my mind
You know it could happen if you'd only see me in a different light
Maybe when we finally get together, you will see that I was right
Say you love me You know that it could be nice
If you'd only say you love me
Don't treat me like I was lice, ooh, woo, woo
Please love me I'll be yours and you'll be mine
If you'd only say you love me, baby
Things would really work out fine
Don't you know that I want to be more than just your friend
Holdin' hands is fine, but I've got better things on my mind
You know it could happen if you'd only see me in a different light
Maybe when we finally get together, you will see that I was right
Say you love me You know that it could be nice
If you'd only say you love me
Don't treat me like I was lice, ooh, woo, woo
Please love me I'll be yours and you'll be mine
If you'd only say you love me, darlin'
Things would really work out fine
Say that you love me Mmm...mmm...ooh...ho...ho...
Say that you love me Mmm...mmm...mmm... Hoo...hoo...baby
Would you say you love me You know that it could be nice
If you'd only say you love me
Don't treat me like I was lice, ooh, woo, woo
Please love me I'll be yours and you'll be mine
If you'd only say you love me, baby
Things would really work out fine
If you'd only say you love me, darlin'
Things would really work out fine
If you'd only say you love me, darlin'
Things would really work out fine
Tuesday, October 19, 2004
Reflective Thoughts with a Good Friend
My good friend and I were talking this morning. We were talking about relationships. She was always the playful, not so serious in a relationship as she would claim to me. She would always meet with men and date them and have some intimacy with them. But in the end, she would not take it seriously. For her, it’s not her cup of tea. Is that the term for it? Oh well.
I, for certain was her opposite. I have been in deep, serious war against finding my love. Finding a friend and a partner whom I could share, complement and integrate with is one thing I think is important to me. I’ve been through a lot of interesting encounters with women and men. I don’t deny that fact now, as I am writing this. It’s all basically the same. I have loved and been hurt many times. Sometimes I grew tired and weary. My work, my style has been affected. In the end, I exert some force to move on and go on.
My friend and I, are opposite in our ideas when it comes to dealing with this love thing. I have always encouraged her to try it out seriously. At the same time, she has encouraged me to try it out slowly and don’t rush. By all means, we share those ideas and in a bit fashion we delight with our own experiences.
Just recently, both of us experienced yet another unforgettable encounter, respectively. This time the only difference is the way she, my friend, has thought of her recent encounter. She said to me that she is now somehow ready to consider serious relationship with this man. Or if I understand it right, she said she is 70% sure she likes the man. I’d say in an instant encounter she felt compatibility with this man. I certainly believe that this can happen. Sometimes this kind of setup tends to be the real ones. But I cautioned her as well to take it slowly as she would always tell me.
As she was in her own experience, I also shared with her my recent encounter. As usual my dilemma was the thought of not knowing if the person that I am seeing is really interested in me or was it all just a play? I had this most peculiar encounter with this man and certainly I would really think that this might just be some adventure. But there are just those elements that cannot be seen by the naked eye that I feel or at least I think I can see through.
I certainly know my feeling for this man. I know I like him and I am interested in getting to know him better. But the only reception that I am receiving from him is vague signal that is confusing on my end. I am confuse, maybe I am just being so excited and overly assuming that we do have a connection not just physically but in other aspect of the relationship. Somehow I do want to think it that way. On the other hand, I also think that I am just the one thinking of it that way.
My good friend said that I should just enjoy the moment. Try to get to know the man and just be myself. At this point, I wonder how far can I go? And how interested this man is to me? I like him indeed. I know probably for a fact that he still has some personal things to consider. Can’t he just say, “I like you too, if you’ll wait for me…” Maybe a clear, solid signal that will assure me that I am not lost.
The point is! In a relationship, there are varied circumstances. Communicating your feeling and saying what you mean is one thing. Assuring someone and being honest is another important matter. Being friends first will certainly develop any serious possibility of a deeper relationship, if both parties are willing to cross this line. In having a serious connection, all these will combine.
For my friend and I. I wish us both HAPPINESS and TRUE LOVE in all its definition. Thanks to you for sharing your thoughts to me and as I to you. Thanks to Nur as my friend’s “1/4 Banana Chip” and to Flip as my “Philbox”, for without them we would not feel this good feeling again. Friends or more than that, we all win this round!
I, for certain was her opposite. I have been in deep, serious war against finding my love. Finding a friend and a partner whom I could share, complement and integrate with is one thing I think is important to me. I’ve been through a lot of interesting encounters with women and men. I don’t deny that fact now, as I am writing this. It’s all basically the same. I have loved and been hurt many times. Sometimes I grew tired and weary. My work, my style has been affected. In the end, I exert some force to move on and go on.
My friend and I, are opposite in our ideas when it comes to dealing with this love thing. I have always encouraged her to try it out seriously. At the same time, she has encouraged me to try it out slowly and don’t rush. By all means, we share those ideas and in a bit fashion we delight with our own experiences.
Just recently, both of us experienced yet another unforgettable encounter, respectively. This time the only difference is the way she, my friend, has thought of her recent encounter. She said to me that she is now somehow ready to consider serious relationship with this man. Or if I understand it right, she said she is 70% sure she likes the man. I’d say in an instant encounter she felt compatibility with this man. I certainly believe that this can happen. Sometimes this kind of setup tends to be the real ones. But I cautioned her as well to take it slowly as she would always tell me.
As she was in her own experience, I also shared with her my recent encounter. As usual my dilemma was the thought of not knowing if the person that I am seeing is really interested in me or was it all just a play? I had this most peculiar encounter with this man and certainly I would really think that this might just be some adventure. But there are just those elements that cannot be seen by the naked eye that I feel or at least I think I can see through.
I certainly know my feeling for this man. I know I like him and I am interested in getting to know him better. But the only reception that I am receiving from him is vague signal that is confusing on my end. I am confuse, maybe I am just being so excited and overly assuming that we do have a connection not just physically but in other aspect of the relationship. Somehow I do want to think it that way. On the other hand, I also think that I am just the one thinking of it that way.
My good friend said that I should just enjoy the moment. Try to get to know the man and just be myself. At this point, I wonder how far can I go? And how interested this man is to me? I like him indeed. I know probably for a fact that he still has some personal things to consider. Can’t he just say, “I like you too, if you’ll wait for me…” Maybe a clear, solid signal that will assure me that I am not lost.
The point is! In a relationship, there are varied circumstances. Communicating your feeling and saying what you mean is one thing. Assuring someone and being honest is another important matter. Being friends first will certainly develop any serious possibility of a deeper relationship, if both parties are willing to cross this line. In having a serious connection, all these will combine.
For my friend and I. I wish us both HAPPINESS and TRUE LOVE in all its definition. Thanks to you for sharing your thoughts to me and as I to you. Thanks to Nur as my friend’s “1/4 Banana Chip” and to Flip as my “Philbox”, for without them we would not feel this good feeling again. Friends or more than that, we all win this round!
Sunday, October 17, 2004
Missing mom
I woke up and think of you
I stand from my bed and visualize you
How I miss you still
How sad I become still
When I think of you
Missing you mom
I do, I really do
Missing you “nanay”
I am, I am missing you
Again, I miss you
I head for work in the morning
I am thinking of the day ahead
Can’t help but miss you still
And think of our times together
When I dream of you
Missing you mom
I am in low key now
I miss your care
I miss your love
I miss your tender touch
I am now in the office
Hoping I’ll get by this day
I want you to know…
I miss you
From a distance…
..to where ever you maybe
I love you!
Your son, your one and only, “anak”…Jonathan
I stand from my bed and visualize you
How I miss you still
How sad I become still
When I think of you
Missing you mom
I do, I really do
Missing you “nanay”
I am, I am missing you
Again, I miss you
I head for work in the morning
I am thinking of the day ahead
Can’t help but miss you still
And think of our times together
When I dream of you
Missing you mom
I am in low key now
I miss your care
I miss your love
I miss your tender touch
I am now in the office
Hoping I’ll get by this day
I want you to know…
I miss you
From a distance…
..to where ever you maybe
I love you!
Your son, your one and only, “anak”…Jonathan
Phil box
A box of full of thoughts
A box full of hopes
A man with good aura
A person with smiling heart
A box not empty on the head
A box not so perfect
A man with capabilities
A person that truly holds definition
This box so full of goodies
This box I got the chance to see
I hope to look more inside
I hope the box will open
And hopefully...the box..
this box, this man, this person
Will be the box where I can
Care and share myself with
A box full of hopes
A man with good aura
A person with smiling heart
A box not empty on the head
A box not so perfect
A man with capabilities
A person that truly holds definition
This box so full of goodies
This box I got the chance to see
I hope to look more inside
I hope the box will open
And hopefully...the box..
this box, this man, this person
Will be the box where I can
Care and share myself with
Tuesday, October 12, 2004
With a potential
I fell and got distracted
I cried and ease my pain
I never looked back
I just moved on
I hide and glide
I fly high and set high
When you left
I got tied and I sigh
I got so low big time!
Potentials did came
So much among the crowd
Potentials along my way
I never let them go
So I say, with these potentials I grow
Love life, sex life
These potentials had share
These potentials had claim
They had me and I had them
What a potential feeling it has been!
I hope to seek love
I hope to find light
Experienced forever bliss
and Delight in romance
... with a potential!
I cried and ease my pain
I never looked back
I just moved on
I hide and glide
I fly high and set high
When you left
I got tied and I sigh
I got so low big time!
Potentials did came
So much among the crowd
Potentials along my way
I never let them go
So I say, with these potentials I grow
Love life, sex life
These potentials had share
These potentials had claim
They had me and I had them
What a potential feeling it has been!
I hope to seek love
I hope to find light
Experienced forever bliss
and Delight in romance
... with a potential!
Sex and Love
They say sex is part of human living. They say love conquers all. Sex and love combined is the best thing ever they say. How thrilling this statements can be?
When I was young I learned about playing with myself. Which I think most of us had experienced as we grew up. And only God knows, sometimes we are still doing it when the need arises. Self-sex is the fastest way to get around and feed the carnal desire. It's like a fast food chain that offers milkshake or sundae. SHAKE! SHAKE! SHAKE! VIBRATE! VIBRATE! VIBRATE!
When I was in my younger adult days, I knew very well that potential of having the power to execute the physical act of love, sex! By peer influences, by close relatives, by tv, radio and magazines, I learned it all. I even learned sex from my parents. They taught me well by explaining the risk of having sex due to inappropriate circumstances. That is one heck of a balance, while I learn sex is hot, steamy and oh heaven, I learned that it should come with being a responsible person.
My first sex experience is something I won't forget. Though there was no actual penetration and it was all mere cuddling, and suggestive actions I'd say it was the trigger. After that I never forgot about sex. But I never missed one point along this journey. I also crossed path with love.
I've heard a lot of things about love. It's all good and bad, positive and negative! I thought I won't have to deal with such situation but at one point in my life I had to. Up to now, at certain stages in my life I always deal with love situation. The longing for a serious partner, the need for someone that you'll share your happiness and sadness has triggered me to look for love. The love that is known to many. It is not the filial love, not even the platonic love, but TRUE love with someone!
Sex and love is now combined! Or should I ask, love should come with sex. Is it a rule? Yes it is, I say! But the other question, how to have sex without feeling love but lust alone? This is a different kind of thing for that matter. But it does happen, meaning sex without love!
I have always wondered. It is the mystery of sex and love treated at the same time. I guess in my experiences, I never have fully realized the feeling of love but just the physical connection. Now, I am certain I want someone to share my love with and give up my whole being with. It is definite! It is certain! Too much time I have wasted and too much pain I have experienced. I do hope in the nearest possible time I enjoy both sex and love.
As I write and speak out my thoughts (napag-uusapan lang naman) I want to end this in saying ....
"Sex is inevitable but true love may come as the biggest surprise anyone would never expect in time."
Wednesday, October 06, 2004
Enigma
Am I lost in translation or am I just impatient? I need to unfold the things I have planned to do. I do not know if I am doing ok or not.
I am basically in dire need to do and be my best. But I find it so hard to deal with life. Now, at this very moment, I am feeling a bit depress on thinking of what I have yet to achieve.
Before this, I asked for 2 months. And now, 2 months have passed and here I am.
I have started anew and now I am building my blocks. I do not want to think that I am lost. I may be impatient and now in enigmatic mood. This is probably the most logical and sensible explanation I am conditioning myself to hear as I write. Oh whatever!
Oh life is confusing and so mysterious. May HE be able to give me patience and make me stronger as I develop and pursue the various enigma there is to be answered within my journey.
I am basically in dire need to do and be my best. But I find it so hard to deal with life. Now, at this very moment, I am feeling a bit depress on thinking of what I have yet to achieve.
Before this, I asked for 2 months. And now, 2 months have passed and here I am.
I have started anew and now I am building my blocks. I do not want to think that I am lost. I may be impatient and now in enigmatic mood. This is probably the most logical and sensible explanation I am conditioning myself to hear as I write. Oh whatever!
Oh life is confusing and so mysterious. May HE be able to give me patience and make me stronger as I develop and pursue the various enigma there is to be answered within my journey.
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