Tired

Today, after a long weekend and a good time spent at home in Bulacan I suddenly felt that I am am thinking uncertain....



Last night, Sunday, after just arriving in Makati from the province, I spent some time at our pad and then went out for a Sunday night time out! I went out with a good friend of mine. We basically spent our time in Greenbelt then later decided to take time on net cafe. Well, prior to the net cafe we basically catch up on the events that transpired in our lives for the past days. In addition to this, the most encouraging part is the thrill of talking about our love lives. Hehehe



Well, the night just passed by. Last night I also met with a person whom I thought was worth meeting to the least..but I guess I was wrong. It wasn't a very good timing I must say. I did not feel good about it. I thought that meeting this person could have made a difference somehow from the other meet ups I have made in the pasts.



In short, after almost an hour, I segway to go back to my friend and we went on to continue surfing the net until the early morning...



I went home at 3 AM, then I woke up at around 8:45 AM. Just enough to go to work. BUT! oops, I am not feeling good about going to work all of a sudden. I felt tired and hindered. There has been some uncertainty at work lately, the company status and it's objectives per se is the main concern I have. I enjoy my new work come to think of it. But, I don't seem to enjoy it fully when at the back of my mind I might find myself in the ditch for lack of stability in tenure. I don't know how to assess the situation, my situation, with my company right now. It seems that I have a good future here since opportunities to shine here would be good if the office would just simply be transparent about where we are heading. On the contrary, I feel quite down and uneasy.



How I wish I could disspell all these negativities in my mind. I have long for a stable job and a good personal life for so long now. 2005 is such a new hope for me...after going through a lot these past 3 years. I can only think now that I must be ready to face any consequences that lies ahead of me. Life is a journey indeed. But then, I couldn't help but think why my journey has always been not so smooth.



I am tired.

Not in the mood as I write

It's a new year once again. I am back here in the office. It's a start of a new work. The holiday vacation is over.



The vacation was cool and full of good celebration. I basically spent the time with my kinsmen and friends. For me, all these are worth while celebrations.



Yet! Now it is 2005...suddenly am not in a good mood. I was trying to find a reason to this abnormality within my mind. My mood shifted to a considerable extent. Which I really don't like feeling.



I am perhaps on the right track though. What I need perhaps is a dose of inspiration from my higher Being. A swirl of positivity that is dissipating or has lowered down. I need a boost!



I am certain that I am in a good direction. I don't intend to lose my way now. I can't afford to fall right at this point. I do hope as I express myself here, I will find the reason to feel good and happy again.



There's so much going on again in my head and my tolerance is shaking to a point where I cannot bear it. This is a year of new hope for me and achievements. As far as I am concern, I want all my goals and end be achieved. The question is, "Will I survive?" The answer that I'd like to say, "Yes! With Flying colors!"



Head up and be proud!